Whatever Happened To Syazwi Mazli

i don't know where is this coming from, but i don't like it here anymore. i never feel content. i don't write the way i used to anymore. i don't sing the way i used to anymore.

and you know the feeling when you are aren't content, you end up blinded and wanting everything for no reason - like a very unhappy spoilt rich kid. yeah, i never had that problem before. well at least not before i got here. i always were content with all i have and were grateful for what He gave me. and when i want something, it's very seldom i want it just because i want it. i always put what i need first. i always be able to see the value of stuff. well now, i don't feel the same anymore. always wanting something. and worse of all, most of the time i don't even have a tiny bit of neccesity for those particular things. just a sheer desire and gluttony. that's bad. i feel like my integrity had been somewhat tainted. i'm afraid i might be losing it.

meh.