personification in monologue.

dear mendota,
i always love being around you but i feel that, lately, you are cold towards me.


XD

hari ini, aku sangat sangat suka epal! >.<

you brought me here. Thank you.

someone wrote a nice writing on the ice. 
it says "dear lake, you brought me here. Thank you."

yes, lake mendota in madison had frozen! the ice is nice and thick. you can step on it. but that is only true for about 100 meters from the shore. if you were to go beyond that, you'd get caught in the watery grave of the subzero water that is lake mendota.

looking a year back, this is about the time of the year when i was busy searching for prospect schools in the states.

i remembered choosing three schools from the list. they were all ranked in certain order which i couldn't figure out how. nonetheless, from that list, i didn't secure an admission from my first school of choice. i did manage to get number two and number three though. and now looking at the present, i am in the number three, ie the one on the bottom of my list. yeah, that's right. why and how i came to that decision? my college essay already explain that so i don't feel like doing it again. turn out, it was the best choice i could have ever made. how's that possible? recently i came across a link on facebook to the SOA website (stands for Society of Actuaries). they just released a recognition to certain actuarial schools in the states: Centers of Actuarial Excellence (CAE) Fall 2009. the title is self-explanatory, thank you. browse if you eager to know more. and guess what, my school is in it! and number one and number two was not. sorry :). from this point on i know that i am on the right track. my hopes and dreams are solidified. now what i ought to do is strive. :)

plus, when i had the interview for my american visa, i was asked a question by the immigration personnel: "out of all places in America, why do you choose Madison?" i answered that with my skemaness to the max; that uw is a good school. bla bla bla. turned out that lady gave me an unsatisfied expression and repeated the question. i rephrase the same answer only with much facts and enthusiasm. "i chose madison because it is a very good school and that mara set criteria for their scholar. bla bla bla..." was the jest of it. and yet, she repeated the question for the third time. i was stumped. i didn't know what to say anymore. i guess my reasons weren't good enough for her. so, on that very critical moment, with sweaty palms and butterfly stomach, i ponder hard to some witty word to say and suddenly i blurted out: "i heard they have great bus there. and nice lakes too."

she then smiled, with satisfaction and approval. and with that, i passed my visa interview. weird. i guess that is the sort of thing she wanted to hear from the interviewees. juniors, take note.

come to think about it, the lake did, in some weird and subtle way, brought me here. yes it did. think about it, if i didn't blurted out about the lake, i might partially not be able to be here today, right?

i smell butterfly-effect-theory-obsessing-paranoia. lol. XD

i wish my lumix isn't broken anymore.

it's funny how humans like to relate to everything around them.

how thoughtful

my professor does has a sense of humor.

even at the most stressful time of the semester.

^_^

i was fooled by wason's card-selection task. darn. i was caught off guard la!

Pure Hatred

this post is rather dark and sadistic, so do beware. skip if you want to have your peace of mind intact for a good night sleep.

credit to anonymous

reading a chapter in psychology reminded me how a teacher in my school, whom i have no preference and opinion about before (ie likes or disgusts, loves or hates, etc.), turned into a teacher who i hated most in my entire life. it all happened just in a brief moment during an evening prep hour.

what really make me ticked off about her is she have this dogma in her head that a student, clever or not, could not think what benefit them and what don't. and that student do not have any sensible reason for what they do and why they did so. so reminder to self: other people is capable of thinking for themselves. we all have reasons. it is a matter of how good or how poorly we are at it.

so everyone, to me, this is pure hatred.

hahahaha.

and i was never once sat in her class. that means she never even taught me in any class! amazing kan? how i could possible hate her to the extend i dedicate a i-hate-you post such as this? maybe because almost the whole school dislikes her. haha.

fyi, i don't hate for no reason. in this case, it is not that i voluntarily choose to hate her, rather because i couldn't find any reason not to. and i must assure you, that is undeniably true. give me a reason not to.

i would want to make it clear that i am a relatively peaceful and reasonable person who choose to resolve confrontation and always have this higher niat to make the world a better place for everyone to live in. this is particular matter is an isolate case. thank you.

hate is not a good thing. yeah, yeah i heard of that a thousand times. so don't bother telling.

ok, at least to make up for violating your peace of mind, i'll add one positive thought to this post.

one happy happy thing that i can related to her is the fact that i got A1 for her subject (which she never did taught me, just to make it clear) after she specifically sumpah me to fail her subject paper during that fateful encounter in that very prep hour. i was soooooooooo freakishly happy during the result day.

thank you teacher for making that day so special to me. :)

i wonder what is the color of pure hatred. must be ugly.

on a related note, another reminder to self: do not agitate a person who has just woken up, which she also fail to figure out why. may she enjoy that. and probably that is one of the things that feeds her emotional needs.

Simultaneous

tonight,

i simultaneously fallen in love

with two dead poets

simultaneously

speaking of divided love

i just watched 30 minutes worth of "Mac vs PC" videos and i found it amusingly entertaining. it just made my day :)

the best ones are on shadowlock's.

oh, aku still suka epal ^_^

The Evolvings

come to think of it,

the classics never get old, do they?

for all the different reason,

i felt good about the world

and its irony

why we seldom able to focus on

the important things?

i am curious

funny thing about misinterpretations,

they really are funny

priming is a bliss

got that right mr h XD

finally! i put varsity on the blog, unfortunately the football season is almost over. in case you are wondering about the song, it is the university of wisconsin alma mater's song/chant. hope to get into the school spirit for the game this saturday (and hopefully, into the spirit of the midterms too. lol). we are playing against michigan this week. so michigan, you better watch out! because we're gonna kick some but! and hard too. haha. may the best team wins.

take a break

a normal brain can only function optimally for

about an hour

so

take a break

don't take mine! i still need it! 
XD

2 to 120 seconds and

something green to stare at

are all that it takes

forgot where i read about this study from

today is the day i discover alfredo rice! wuhu! when an asian staple food meets a european cuisine, it sure does amaze me. especially when it happens in an american kitchen ^_^

The perfect two seconds

The perfect two seconds

i found it

and it made me feel so alive

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he who closed the door

and pulled out the doorknob.

how am i gonna get throught this?

harsh still

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loves D-Rex!

kawaii~

^_^

wish i could get one for christmas

which i believe would never happen

why?

it is not because i am not being nice throughout the year

just that i do not celebrate christmas!

lol

Lalala~

don't forget to take care of

your mental health

^_^

lalala~

Halloween Joke

"i am not exactly a C.A.T. person"

hahahaha XD

funny postal people. you guys just made my day ^_^

toodling bird

darn.

cooling off during a hot night

orang tua buang tebiat.

3 Week Notice

Since my birthday is only in a month timeso i like to warn those out there in advance about this:what i want for my coming of age birthday!

huhu

^_^

*buat muka comel*

ranked top on my wanted list is the Dunlop capo! it's a metallic capo with a alloy-based frame which makes it highly durable. main baling kat anjing pun kutip balik aku rasa elok lagi, tinggal nk samak skit2 je. lagi satu, rubber cushion dia xmenjahanamkan neck gitar kesayangan aku. itu sgt perlu. and yg paling best dan sgt aku ske, easy and efficient gripping mechanism dia. memang sgt lembut n sgt grip. sng nk pasang senang nk bukak. memang itu yg aku sgt sgt idam2kan pasal capo. xde ah aku menyakitkan tgn nak bukak n pasang capo mcm capo2 aku yg dlu. ketat siot. menyesal aku beli capo2 murah tu. it would make my life a lot lot easier and less headaching. i wanted this baby so badly for a long time. cuma masa dan fulus saja yg xmengizinkan. esp fulus. hahahaha. owh, btw, this lil bad ass cost around rm70. klau korg pandai boleh je bargain jadi rm55. sbb xramai yg nk beli capo ni. mahal satu. satu lagi org yg jaga kedai tu pun dah boring hari2 tgk capo tu xgerak2 pun kat kedai dia. tu yg senang je dia nk bersihkan tu. huhu. boss2, kasi saya la boss. letak situ lame xde manfaat pun. hahahaha. gua mau!

Ha! benda yg second ni best! aku sgt ske. jam omnitrix dlm cartoon ben 10. jam yg bleh tukar jadi 10 jenis alien yg sgt kental. huhu. mantap2. sume benda pasal jam ni aku ske walaupun jam ni xmampu menunjukkan masa dan waktu. hahahah. jam ni aku jumpa bulan lepas dkt petronas cendana. gler excited wo! aku rasa waktu kecik pun aku xse-excited tu. huhu, sejak dari hari tu, tiap2 kali aku gi petronas, mesti aku akan usha jam ni. wajib. hahaha. lawak je. pastu terpikir sorg2 kat situ "siapalah yg nak belikan jam ni utk aku. ish3. kesian aku" (dialog menagih simpati) hahahaha. sape yg berjaya dptkan aku jam yg sgt best ni akan aku syg dia lebih. cepat2! g ramai carik jam ni dkt petronas seksyen 6. bleh ah aku brangan2 jadi alien nanti. hahahaha. bila lagi nk dapat hadiah mainan. lepas ni dah dewasa dah. kne igt tu. hahahaha. harga dia xde ah mahal. rm 12 je. huhu. nnti aku blanja askrem. lalala~


the 3rd item in my wishlist is gokey! keriangan di dalam sau kotak. yey! rm10 je. huhu. mengingatkan balik zaman kegemilangan kanak2 aku dlu. haha. best2. aku berjaya menjadi pelumba kereta kawalan bebas (itu yg dipanggil dlm komik) yang berjaya. semuanya terima kasih atas influence cerite kartun dashankuro (i dunno how it was spelled) dkt tv2 setiap petang sabtu. masa dia sama dgn power rangers. aku igt lgi. tp power rangers ari ahad. huhu. klau korg nak belikan utk aku, beli yg ni. aku ni yg ni. xmau yg lain. specific. warna biru. sebijik mcm ni. huhu. sbbnya tamiya aku yg dlu2 yg paling aku syg adalah model ni. sebijik. nama dia shadow dash. kot. huhu. lantak ah. asalkan same dgn yg ni. hahaha. beli tau beli tau! hahahaha. tmpt yg aku jumpa benda ni adalah di petronas seksyen 6 juga. betol2 bawah jam omnitrix. huhu. XP


the last one on my list is pen hitam ZEBRA. huhu. klau korg xmmpu nk beli hadiah2 dia atas, xpe. jgn risau. korg beli pen ni pun aku dah syg korg. huhu. pen ni sgt best. serious best! xtipu. pen dia tebal. mmpu mmbuatkan tulis aku yg carak ayam ni pun masih tenang hati dibaca. huhu. n satu, walaupun tebal, dia cepat kering. xtertarik walaupun digilap terus selepas ditulis. huhu. benda ni sgt penting utk aku sbb aku ni kidal. klau xnnt tulisan aku comot. byk tarik. huduh dowh. aku sendiri pun sakit hati bca tulisan aku balik. hahahaha. harga dia xmahal. xsemahal hadiah2 di atas. rm1.50 je. huhu. tp satu je ah masalah dia, susah nk carik. aku dah merata2 cari, xjumpe2 gak. blizt book store bangi, pkns bangi, plaza alam sentral shah alam, kedai2 seksyen 2 shah alam, kedai fr dan kedai ni tmpat2 yg aku dah carik (so korg xyah carik dkt sni lagi). igt, jenama dia ZEBRA. huhu XP. tp seriously, aku sgt appreciate klau korg just beli pen ni utk aku. xyah beli hadiah @ perhiasan mahal2. aku xske sgt pun. aku in praktikalia. huhu. dari bazir beli benda mahal2, baik korg beli pen ni utk aku. duit korg selamat, aku pun gembira. heee ^_^. seriously, aku akan sgt2 ske. pen ni sgt berguna dan aku akan terhutang budi dkt korg. so, ape lagi, ramai2 ah beli utk aku. pegi2, scout sume tempat. pastu nnt bleh ah kasi tau aku skali dkt mne. hahahahaha. sbb pen aku byk hilang2 skrg ni. adeyh. malangnya. hahahahha ^_^"

lalala~ske ^_^

Health Warning

do not eat dawood's rojak mee ayam

unless you haven't eaten for 2 days,

at least.

seriously

n oh, best eaten with a pair of chopsticks^_^

intel

a really really bad grammatical error.